Every time when people start telling me
about their friendship problems, I feel so depress deep down.
Having a friend is supposed to be a
blessing not a curse.
Having a friend is supposed to ease
your life not making it harder.
I do not really know how to give good
advice as I have not encounter any serious problem in a friendship.
I have a really good bunch of friends
throughout my high school, supporting me through thick and thin.
Maybe I am too lucky that I was
surrounded by amazing friends and I neglected my responsibilities. I
did not really play my role well as a friend. Did I..?
I came to a new environment this June
and have some new friends.
I thought I will be lucky again and I
do.
I do meet great people.
But somehow...
I used to be really close with this
girl.
We spent most of our time together in
the college.
Everyone thought we have known each
other for ages because we seems super close.
I treated her as my number one friend
in college.
I knew she is secretive so I gave her
spaces and do not talk much about her personal life.
She did not tell me much about her life
either.
We usually talk about recent stuff and
hardly about the past.
Here comes the plot twist.
She was missing from college for the
whole week and I tried to contact her via social medias but to no
avail.
Lecturers and course mates keep asking
me about her action.
Each time I answered I do not know, I
feel that my heart was slash by a knife again and again.
I know people will start to judge.
We thought you are her best friend..?
How come you do not know where she is..?
What more can I say..?
I waited for her reply for the whole
week and she just refused to reply.
I am sorry bothered you with our
friendship.
After a week she appeared in college
and sat at the back of the class.
Not a single word came out from her
mouth.
And she left after half an hour.
And never appear till today.
Some of my course mates claimed that
they saw her in college but she never attend any lecture.
She even ignored them who actually
approached her.
What is she actually going through that
make her change to a total different person.
This is worrying me so much.
That feeling when someone you used to
be friend with turns into a total stranger.
That helplessness when you really hope
to lend a hand but people just do not appreciate.
I wonder if she has any problem as she
is acting really weird.
I have tried ways to reach out to her I
do not want to seems clingy or annoying.
When you are sincere as a friend but
people treat you like a trash.
But anyway I really thank you for being
by my side when I need to get used to a new environment.
Maybe I am just so fail as a friend.
On the other hand, I actually start to
see the true colour of certain people.
They acted as if they really care but I
know they are just trying to dig some juicy gossips.
This make me feel so disgust.
Even though you guys only know each
other for 4 months have some respect to others.
Care sincerely and not just because you
want to show off that you are super 'informative'.
Stop being so busybody and mind your
own business if you really do not give a fuck about people shine or
rain.
Am I the one who take friendship too
seriously..?
This is so tiring.
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